The Voices for Voices Podcast Episode 41 with Guest, Mental Health Advocate, Adrian Burns

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Cincinnati Ohio, she has been free from any substance for

a full year she has two boys and works into mental

health substance use disorder field space

she helps people get connected to treatment So today we're joined by Adrian via Zoom

thank you for joining us today

awesome yeah very interested as our viewers our audience our listeners

our readers to learn more about you your story kind of where you came from and

where you're at today in what we call it Voices for Voices a brand-new day of

taking things that are challenges in one way or another and turning those

into positives so would you get started

by maybe talking about the early part of your story and your experiences to uh

where you where you were and then we can work into where you're at today and how

people can learn more about you yes absolutely, so I was born and raised

in Cincinnati Ohio I grew up in what I would call a normal childhood both my parents

together they're still together to this day I have an older sister she's three years older than me we had everything we

needed growing up my parents worked hard we grew up middle class

um they both you know they still work they work really hard I noticed that

I always was like I always had social anxiety from a very young age

um I would say since kindergarten since I can remember

um and I you know I would just it was hard to talk to people

um so when I grew, I was experiencing that all in elementary

school middle school and high school when I was sixteen, I was diagnosed with ADHD

and anxiety and that's when I kind of started trying out different medications

from doctors but I didn't see much improvement I started smoking a lot of weed and

drinking to kind of cope with things and I found that when I would drink I had

that the Liquid Courage the confidence that I never had when I was sober and I

really liked that so that kind of started as a weekend thing through High School up until my

senior year I was smoking weed every day and then I started skipping classes which I had never done before getting

suspended from school one quarter in high school I had a 1.3

GPAI barely graduated and then right after college right after

high school I decided I was gonna go away to college, so I went to Northern

Kentucky University and lived on campus and that’s when things really started

to go downhill I started I never went to class I started drinking every day to every

other day experimenting with other drugs and things like that, and I didn't feel like

myself at all unless I was drinking when I was 19 I so I failed out of

college and decided to move back home with my parents and commute the second semester

um which then I never went to class either so then I decided Well I'll take a gap year this year and then I was nineteen

and I got my first DUI I had a telephone pole head-on going about forty miles an

hour I'm lucky to be alive I almost lost my life I broke my collarbone I bruised some ribs

I stretched ligaments in my neck I have permanent nerve damage in my left arm

um really lucky to be here today so that did not

change my Outlook on drinking or anything actually even drinking and driving

um I lost my car and my license for a while, so I wasn't able to so I just

would get rides with friends but I was continuing to drink every day I got a

job as a bartender at a local sports bar and I could drink on the job for free so

I'm like this is great so things really started to progressively

get worse and worse than I lost that job because I was drunk on the job too

much and then I was going from job to job serving mostly

um and couldn't really hold a job for more than a few months at a time because drinking always got in the way I was

either too drunk to go in drunk on the job or too hungover

to wake up and then when I was twenty-one, I found out I

was pregnant with my first boy Kaden he's five now

um and I thought this would be like my Saving Grace this was everything I

needed so I really started to turn my life around I went to school to nursing

school and then I was doing really well throughout the pregnancy staying away

from drugs and alcohol and really trying to just figure out how this next chapter

of my life was gonna go and plan for the future and it wasn't shortly after I had

my son that I went right back to the drugs and the alcohol because that's what I knew

and that's what made me feel safe in a way and so

when my son was things got progressively worse still after that so when I was

when my son was two this was 2020 when covet happened, I was

a server and I lost my job, and I just got my tax money back and I'm

like I have all this money and I have nothing to do because everything is shut down so

um I decided to leave my son and my family and go stay at a hotel for like

two weeks and just party the entire two weeks straight

um and then I only came back because I ran out of money

um so when I came back home, I was embarrassed I was full of guilt and

shame it was eating me up and that was the first time I experienced withdrawal

from alcohol and I ended up hallucinating for five days straight I had to have my mom sleep

in the bed with me at you know 24 years old

um it was not a fun experience so I

decided I was going to go to treatment and get myself some help and I made it about three weeks and then

I was like oh I got this like I have it all figured out I don't need treatment anymore I'm good to go and shortly after

that I relapsed and that started like this ongoing

two-year about two-year process of I would get around 30 days sober and

then I would relapse because I thought I had it all figured out I would go to treatment for 30 days I had it all

figured out and then I would relapse, and I lost count of how many times I ended

up in the hospital with seizures and hallucinations and just every

withdrawal symptom from alcohol you can imagine I believe it was about ten times in the two years and it was to them and then I did get

pregnant with my second child and he is one and a half

now and I kind of cleaned up my act a little bit

um but then as soon as he was born, I went right back to it and then he was about six months old

and my parents were ready to they're like we can't continue to raise both of your kids

um they were ready to figure out a plan to they were going to keep one of my kids and my other one was gonna go to my

aunt I mean they had everything in place to carry on their life and my kids life

that had nothing to do with me in it wow and that was it's hard to talk about now

um that was hard I had tried treatment in the past to get sober for my family and my son and

that didn't work and I was finally at a place where I was so broken inside

um I had no idea who I was, and I was honestly terrified to find out

um just because I was full of all this guilt and shame and I'm like I don't want to keep living

like this like I was just mentally destroyed

um so I decided I was gonna go to treatment and I was supposed to go

and I ended up going out to the bar because I'm like I want to go out one last time just one last time

and I went home with someone who I thought was a friend I didn't know very well

and I was sexually assaulted, and I woke up and that was the last time I

drank I woke up the next morning I was supposed to go to treatment that morning, but I decided to go out one last time

and that's how it ended so the next morning I woke up I did

check myself into treatment and I'm into promise to myself that I would never put myself in a situation for something like

that to happen ever again and I have kept that promise to myself to this day

um I went to a place called The mindful Healing Center in South Lebanon Ohio

and I it's a women's treatment facility I lived there for six months it was

amazing I mean it was hard work don't get me wrong I really, I knew that that was

going to be the only time I would have in my life to really work on myself to

spend all this time working on myself and putting myself first and I

I did that that's exactly what I did for those six months and I'm so grateful for that opportunity and my parents agreed

that they would keep my boys for you know until I was done with treatment

um but this was it this was their last their last draw they had had enough

um and I don't blame them so during when I was in treatment I worked

on you know I went to treatment and I'm I was 26 years old, and I was having my

mom do my laundry cooked for me clean my room I didn't know how to be an adult

let alone take care of two kids so I kind of learned how to take care of myself when I was there

um and then I ended up getting a little mobile

home and that's what I live in now with my boys it's my first place of

my own with my kids and you know it's our home and I

love it I did go back and do three more months of outpatient at the mindful

Healing Center and when I was there one of the things I loved about

their program is I lived there but you had the freedom of going to outside meetings and church

and I went into I was born and raised Catholic, so I came into treatment I

thought Catholic even though I didn't go to church much or anything I just thought that's how I was raised so

that's what I am well when I got to this treatment facility in South Lebanon all the girls

there are like we go to this Christian Church down the street and I'm like

interesting they're like we attend celebrity recovery there and I'm like well I'm Catholic, but I mean I'll try it

out I ended up falling in love with this place those are I call it my home those are

my people I'm there three days a week still I moved 25 minutes away and I still

am there all the time that’s I believe that's truly what

saved me I got baptized in April there and it's just like a continued

blessing every day shortly after I graduated treatment

I so I knew I wanted to work in the mental health and addiction field but I

wasn't sure what that looked like for me I know you have to have for most jobs a certain amount of time clean which I

didn't even have a year yet at this point you had to have degrees or certificates I didn't have any of that

so I saw online that Mercy Health was hiring for

um it's a screening and referral specialist is what it's called and it's really, it's through AmeriCorps

AmeriCorps partnered with Mercy Health so it's like an 11 months they don't like the term

volunteer they like the term service so it's like an 11-month service position and I'm like this is perfect because now

I have a chance to give back to the community when the community has done so

much for me and they've poured my cup you know they filled me with love when I couldn't love myself, they've reached out

um in every way possible and I was super excited for the chance to give even just a part of that back

um so I am in the emergency department right now at a hospital in Cincinnati

and I'm there screening patients that come in that

might be at risk for substance use disorders and then if it's something they're interested in getting them referred out

to treatment from there and getting to share part of my story with them

um and then I like the flexibility of the role that I have now because I also can

meet with any patient that's there I have resources for utilities food housing all different kinds of stuff so

it's a really unique position and I am networking and meeting with all

different kinds of people that are in this field and all different kind of organizations

um and you know I'm really excited to see where

the next year takes me after this term is over it's up in August and I'm working on my certification

for my chemical dependency counseling assistance license right now and my peer

recovery support license or certificate so that when I'm done with this, I will come out with both of

those and then 11 months experience in the field

um to see what I'm what's up next for me yeah that that's absolutely fascinating

um the Story the experiences and how descriptive you were sharing that uh

thank you just have a few questions to me follow up on being diagnosed at

a younger age I guess how did how did that make you feel did it make you feel like okay I'm

different than other people that I guess how

that how did that make you feel because I myself I wasn't diagnosed at a young age but through

taking too many colon cough pills and overdosing on that was put on

antidepressant did a little bit of counseling, but I was able to say no I

don't like the way this makes me feel I just want to do the minimum counseling

therapy so could you just re relive that and just share like how that made you

feel is it just like okay I got to do this I'm going to do it and then there's going to be a time where it ends and

then I don't have to do this yeah it made me feel it did make me

feel different and I kind of already felt like an outcast so

Now you know the fact that I am diagnosed with these things and have to take medication

for it didn’t help that fact at all and I was prescribed Adderall, and I knew

a little bit about it at 16 but not much but it caused me to lose like fifty

pounds and I was I was I wouldn't say overweight, but I was you know a little

heavier and then I it's like I had the body I

that I thought I wanted but I wasn't eating and like looking back at pictures I was far too skinny

um and that started like this ongoing process of now like having body image

issues which I still carry with me to this day yeah that's yeah just the correlation

just talking to you and others like us that have been through

situations that being diagnosed at an earlier age can I have pros and pros and

cons but with maturity and going through social situations I myself was

socially I'm saying socially awkward but unless I was taking something I felt

like oh I can't go here unless I drink unless I do other things and even to

to this day with the medication and the therapy when I go to

places where I don't really know people, I'll just like stand off to the side I won't let go and really talk with

that now if they asked me a question, I'll talk their ear off I won't stop talking so

kind of like those two sides and so my wife she it it's interesting because

when I met her, I was still going through some of the well not some

but the alcoholism part of my life and so the person she met was different

then than kind of now where it's like I'm instead using my energy to try to

help people I was using my energy to pregame to go out to meet people just do

whatever because I thought that's just what life was and so when I

went into the hospital for five-day inpatients day and came out she's like who is this person like they're like

so part of her wanted that old person of when we met but that wasn't like the

healthy me that was that was like yeah, we're going to having fun and we're traveling but it was always with the

kind of supplemental alcohol and other things had to be involved to go do

it and so that that's been a tough thing to kind of get through and

then even with the medication some people need it some people don't one of

my big stigmas or accepting that I needed help was I don't want to have to

take medication the rest of my life if they put me on it that's I automatically

thought about the worst thing that could that happened it wasn't like oh I might be put on for a couple years and

weaned off it was just oh if I start it's never gonna end and that's

been part of what's kind of kept me sober is by accepting myself kind of like where

you got to the point you're like all right like I'm at Rock Bottom I need

to make a change for me and I can't do anything I can't help others can't help my children and really give back

to others if I don't help myself and that's just it's just so just

so interesting now the treatment part I found that was another stigma or thought of oh

my gosh I'm going to treatment I don't want to be one of those people that goes like hi

my name's Justin and these are all the things about me but that was kind of

correlating to your story of when you're able to focus one hundred on yourself you know there's no phones you know it's

literally just you living the most basic life or they're feeding

you and if you need medication, you're going to bed a little bit early you're getting up early you're

doing some Therapeutics maybe some art therapy music what have you but I kind

of look back to that time of oh my gosh I don't have to worry about what if

what's going to happen in the future, and I know my phone and there's obviously the social media and all the

studies about phones and addictions and how it affects the brain but I definitely

felt like once I was removed just from that I was like oh my gosh I can actually think I don't have to

constantly check and see what Google think see what social media thinks how many likes did I get or do I have how

many shares and I went all the way back to a flip phone when I left kind of treatment and

you know people were like laughing and I had to really get over two things one is that everybody's not everybody but many

people are like wow like you have you have a flip phone I remember uh

traveling soon after the Chicago's and after I was, I was released to do a

speaking engagement and I was at the top of the Sears Tower which is now the Willows Tower, and they have kind of the

if you go all the way up, they have the glass where you can step out and kind of look all the way down and out and I was

like I want to take a picture because I'm afraid of heights and the way I got over that if I was flying somewhere and

I would drink and so I was at a point where it's like okay I'm kind of doing something that's like a big fear

and so I got a couple pictures, but the funny part was when I handed my

phone it was a flip phone he's like where's your phone and I was like this is my phone and so like looking back the

pictures are a little bit grainy and but so I had to kind of get over that of being a little bit different in that way

and then the kind of social awkwardness of joining organizations and putting myself

in kind of unfamiliar social situations of being

with whether it's workers or organizations and they have happy hours and they want you to come and if you

don't you can stigmatized like oh well Justin he never comes to any of our uh

external events and part of it was the social awkwardness and the other

part is I've always gone and had a drink and then one turns into two and two turns into three and so I'm going to be

in a situation where I'm just being I can't think of the word now but it's

just things are just dangling in front of me like Justin like the music's playing and the it and people are having

a drink and what do I do what do I drink do I go up and get ice water or bottled

water and so getting over that I was huge and being kind of five

years plus removed from it makes things a little easier now because I

don't think about it I was like okay if I'm gone here I either if it's too

too much and I just don't do it so I kind of pull myself out withdrawal from it but if I'm in a situation like all

right I have to go I at least have to show my face I have to be at this thing this luncheon and there's

going to be a bar there that I'll just get sparkling water or regular water and

just not really worry about it and I think

in my head it was tougher to get over than actually like in practice of I'm

making like this huge deal or yeah, some people are like what do you mean you know drink just have one like are

you driving and it's like no like I don't I don't drink I remember being in

in Greece over the last summer and

after I ate dinner, they brought a complimentary shot of I

don't know if it was vodka or what it was their local alcohol and that

was just like a custom that like they just do they're like okay we have your dinner and then here's your drink and even though I had I was drinking uh

sparkling water I was like what do I tell them like nobody will know if I

just do this one shot like I'm thousands of miles away but then I knew that one

would lead the two and then it was it was just more of more trouble that it

was going to lead to so I mean I commend you for gone through his as tough as it was and

and it is the kind of work through to go through things and kind of you learn and you're like okay I'm gonna go try

this treatment and then a little bit later it kind of relapse and try and try

um and I think just with anything you try it enough and then something just like clicks and in your mind where it

you just I used to sleep in all the time and so I was like now I would like to get up at somewhat earlier in the morning

and I would be more less cloudy thinking and those types of things and those are

kind of some of the positive effects that come from it but it's just remarkable like the changes I I'm

sure that you've seen in in yourself once you put your put yourself first and

just said even though I've been told well you know Justin; you know you were super narcissistic then and you know

putting yourself first you know that's kind of like very similar, but I disagree I think you're putting yourself first to

kind of go out and party to skip family activities to skip things or kind of

just us as human beings like just things like we should do skipping those things to

the accepting self and putting yourself first like we're talking about is just okay like removing certain things from

our lives putting other things healthier in it value the time we spend with

our children and the significant others and family and

and if we don't have a significant other if we're dating just being more particular about who we meet and who

we you know let in with the story because like you I mean I'm very vulnerable when

things come up I'm very open about it but like many things it just puts us in a vulnerable state to just even

share like with a total stranger and then to put you know come on a podcast and then not sure who's going to see it

and you know what are they going to think about me and I just

love the place where you're at and putting yourself first how

how did it make you feel once you started to put yourself first versus how

it would make you feel when you thought you know the substances and alcohol was kind of the way to go like okay well

it's this is just how we do it we go out it makes me feel good the liquid courage versus that feeling versus now where

where you're at can you maybe compare and contrast those two for you yeah, it's

it's going out to the bars and going home with different men, and you know

that was that was who I was and that's all that I was yeah

and today you know I have a clear head I can think straight, and I do you know I do put myself

first today and that's because I know if I don't put myself and my spirituality first

um that everything else I'll lose because I've been there before

um so it does feel good to be able to do that today great can

you keep touch on maybe the spirituality aspect of sounds like that's a that's a big part of what what's helping and

and that's what I also noticed with myself of as I was starting recovery the

therapy and the medication and those are only doing so much I still felt that there was

something missing I was I was in a loving and still am I loving marriage

at the time coming I recover I did we didn't have our daughter at that time but now I'm able to kind of think

more clearly but that that phase it was just making those

those changes were huge for me uh

what were you know going into the bringing the faith into it where in my instance I

still fell I felt like I was performing you were like oh I'm performing at a high level I'm a high performing human

being I'm goal oriented and you know I want to save the world and I'm going to do all these big things which

we do early but I mean put putting

words in mouth but for me it's like oh okay well I'm gonna put these huge goals

out here now and put my energy toward towards that but the faith aspect I

still felt like there was something missing it wasn't until I met with my pastor and was kind of like okay

and I was in between jobs I just lost a job, and I was like I'm

you know where the mental health could have taken another step back of like okay here's another hurdle what do I do

now I have these you know let's say 75 percent of things are kind of kicking on

all cylinders but there's still that 25 percent of how do I be more fulfilled if that's a that

that's a term but when you kind of made that shift of in myself also growing up

Catholic and then moving away from the church and then kind of coming back into it or kind of similarities you

you and I have but yeah like where When Faith started to really come in as like

an option of like oh okay like I'm not going to really think about I'm just gonna do it and I like the way it makes me feel and I'm just going to continue

to do that yeah for me I'm like I had tried everything

else I had been a tons of times I've been to the hospital ten plus times

um trying to detox safely nothing that I did worked

um so I think just having something bigger than myself to believe in and put

my faith in was huge and one of the reasons that I did drink so much is

because I had this massive hole in my heart that I thought only alcohol could

fill and alcohol was my best friend until it wasn’t until it just made this hole bigger

um and I found that you know Jesus is the only thing that

can fill that hole and that has filled that hole in my heart alcohol never did as much as you know you want to say

everything else in my life my family and myself felt that that that's not the

case for me Jesus is what filled that for me

um and it gives me a community of people who have hope and strength and who have our other broken people that

come together there's just something that is so wonderful about broken people coming together and sharing their

experience strength and hope at celebrate recovery at my church in a step study

um that you know you just you come in and you're like I'm screwed up and

they're like you came to the right place yeah, you're at the right place really like yeah there's nowhere else you can

really do that and feel like at home doing it just the vulnerability that's at the

church that I go to, and you know it took me a lot of tries I when I was trying to

get sober I was on this hunt to find the perfect church and I was only going to

Catholic churches because that's what I was born and raised as that's what my parents were born and raised as that's

what I knew so it took me going to treatment and this was the only church that was nearby

that I was able to go to and I just was like I'll try it out

um and you know God knew that I believe he placed me there because he knew that's what I needed yeah and I just

want to share a little bit for our viewers our listeners our readers the show isn't all about a favor not

trying to push anybody in One Direction or another I think the big takeaway is the bigger that we want to think of

things bigger than ourselves you know go from inward to outward and whatever

somebody in a healthy manner uses in our situations are similar but if

somebody's watching listening reading about it just thinking again like the

things that are bigger than okay like and I often think well when I'm no

longer living like how are people going to remember me are they going to remember the party and Justin are they

going to remember the philanthropic and the helping Justin and even looking at

very famous celebrities when they pass away, they once many years pass people

kind of forget about them and I know that that'll happen for me at

some point but I think the better that I can do I'll be able to have that Legacy be a little bit longer than if it

was just that again that short, short term and like you with me it was like

okay going to the bar or meet people go home with them and it was just like this

it just felt like oh it's just a well-oiled machine this is just kind of like how things go and

and that was even like huge for me just going from like okay I'm going for my life of meeting and going home with

people I never knew ages like I didn't know who they were what were they or you

know what they stood for internally to okay now I'm in a

long-term committed marriage that I was like I don't have a choice and we all

have choices but you know being at the point of like okay like I'm I can spend my even energy with that of looking and

meeting somebody on a dating app or having to go to the bar and those

types of things that's just more energy that I can use in a positive manner, and it sounds like with you as well you're

just we're just taking that energy and that time the I mean I'll call it

mental exhaustion that somebody runs marathons, and they get really tired and

they can they're sweating, and they can feel the aches and, in their joins, uh

with mental exhaustion it's still exhaustion that there's still time where we might just need the take a

break and whether that's read a book or just hang out and listen to soothing

music or go to a church go to a group where we're able to be accepted that

those are things that help fill up that space instead of continuing to be like oh okay well I'm meeting somebody on

Friday so what about Saturday and I'm like okay then what about it's all this time and energy and it just feels so

much just so much more like it's worth living and not saying that if somebody's out

there they have a glass of wine and they're in a different situation these

are our situations that we're sharing so not everybody is in our situations have

gone through what we are and where we're at so this again this

isn't a program to tell somebody like oh you can't listen to your doctor if your doctor tells you to you know have a have

a glass of wine or if you have a different lifestyle that's completely okay, we're just here sharing our

experiences for those individuals that might be in a vulnerable spot where

they're like I've been through everything I've gone through these ten different ways I've gone through a treat

man I've gone to the hospital I've been on medication I don't know what's next

and it was kind of life worth living you know at that point

so today you know you talk a little bit about where you're at professionally but

where do you where do you want to get to you talk about some of the certifications that you're doing but

kind of where do you see yourself kind of growing in the next few years professionally

yeah, in the next few years I would love to

um either do like Outreach for a treatment facility or be a chemical dependency counselor

or do some type of case management for you know a treatment center

um that's in the next few years and then like down the road I'm thinking maybe like 10 years or so

um I would love to open up a non-profit to start a non-profit

um helping you know people that are struggling with substance use disorder oh that's awesome everybody's

listening reading watching we'll have some contact information for

Adrian if that's if you're in a position and looking for somebody you

know reach out to Adrian that that's what's in in her future of what she

wants to do and I think the lived experience is one of the best experiences if not the

best you can go to and get an education and we can get certifications and

that and I think those are kind of checking the boxes for an industry but

the actual coming to the table is saying well okay I'm recommending things because I've been there and here are

things like I haven't worked and they're probably not going to work for you and here are some things that may have uh

contributed to the positive spot that I'm in in my life so those recommendations are not just coming

from a book smart individual it's coming from somebody that has book smarts but

also has that that lived experience like okay you think that I don't know how you feel in this situation maybe we don't

know and one hundred of the situations but there's many situations where we talk where

things are very similar of how they make you feel like okay how does it make you feel getting ready to go to the bar

and having a few drinks and the thought of meeting somebody new and

going home with them and those things versus okay well it comes after

that like after that that day you know what if that's one day a week what about the other six days what are you doing

those other six days is it all the build up to that point where you're

trying to pack as many things as possible in into that day and that's what I love can

you maybe share about the lived experience and just at like a high level of how you think that that is

because it is a great quality to have for somebody who's watching listening

reading about this podcast of saying I'm in that same spot I don't have that certification nobody's going to take a

chance on me because I'm not clean for the amount of time that I need to be just having that that lived experience

of to maybe touch on that if you could yeah, I

um a long way I know from my personal experience like I said I work in the emergency

department and I'm really there as a volunteer when I have a patient come in that's struggling with substance use

disorder and you have nurses and doctors that come in with degrees I mean doctors

that went to school for this for 10 years and they're trying to talk with a patient and

then I come in with no degree no certificate just you know come in and tell the

patient like hey I understand what you're going through I'm not another person coming in here telling you

have to do this and that I’ve been through it I've been sitting in the same bed that you're in right now I know how

you feel it’s like that it builds up this like unspoken trust

immediately and opens a patient up to like wow okay this isn't just someone coming in telling me how I need to start

living my life and what I need to stop doing it's someone that has been there that can relate to it

um and I you know before I went through everything I did I

had no idea what my purpose in life was and I'm so grateful for hitting rock

bottom and hitting it as hard as I did because I found my purpose in life through that and now, I get to share that

experience strength and hope with others I don't think if I would have gone through that I would

I have found my purpose in life, and you know being at the very bottom like it

just makes you so grateful for all the things in life when you've been that low

so I'm really grateful for all of it absolutely so we've kind

of reached the end of our time today is there anything we did we

didn't cover that you want to touch on before we kind of get to the contact information is there any area that you

want to maybe dive a little bit deeper in we do have time for that if that's something that that you'd like to do

um yeah just one thing I wanted to share really quickly I know I talked a lot about church and spirituality and that's

part of my journey and what's worked for me I work with a lot of patients who

um are not interested in that and that is one hundred okay I think just trying out

different things until you find what works for you is you know will be huge in the long

run yeah that's I one thousand percent so support that that it's trying

different things different things work for people in different ways some

things may work for you work for me might not work for others or vice versa and works for you but not for me and uh

and I and I think that's just that's part of having that that kind of clean thought process to start going through

not that you're going through an Excel spreadsheet but you're just going through like more healthy ways like okay

well I somebody's mentioned church and I'm 45 years old and that just hasn't

been for me maybe I'll go to go to church and just commit to maybe doing

that one time and then have that be like okay what's the worst that happens I go and spend an hour a couple hours at

church and then if that's something that I want to pursue then you can

move forward if not but yeah just going through the healthier ways and instead

of okay well I'm going to go from substance one the substance two drug one and two in those routes I think that's

for our audience that that's what we're really trying to get across fine find healthy ways for you the

help fill to use Adrian's term to fill your cup so you can fill others

cup and that this can't stress that how important that is that we can't share

when we don't have the energy and myself gone through kind of the uh

the phase of at the kind of the lowest point for me I

lost forty pounds I wasn't eating I was down to eating carrots and hummus my

body was telling me my mind was telling me well Justin you're allergic to this you're allergic to that and it was

basically my body's way of shutting down it was taken all those dominoes that I

hadn't dealt with all that guilt all that shame that ended up being 138 different things that were like okay I

feel bad how this relationship then I felt bad about how I treated this person about not including this person and

all those things it's like oh my gosh all those things were inside me that I was just trying to say okay well I'm

just gonna I'm gonna move on from it and some of us I can do that but

I know for myself I wasn't able to it really hit that point where it just overwhelming that where the energy was

sucked out I was in bed crying my wife was like why are you crying and like get up you know you're

you're the male you're the husband like what what's going on and I think that's also part of

you and I and the audience they just have to figure what works for us that even if it is a loved one very close to

us they do have our best in mind but if they haven't gone through some of the

things that we have it's tough and I know for me if I haven't gone through a situation to give a recommendation, I'd

probably say the same thing like what's going on like you don't have that bruise you don't

have that sprained ankle that I can see it's just this your words and I'll see you yeah

that Brokenness that we are as at that low point and by finding whatever works

in the healthiest way is what we recommend and if faith

is part of that and church is part of that then go that route if it's not find

find something that fills that that spot so how can how can our

audience get in touch with you or just find out more about you if they say wow and he did you have a very powerful

story and experience and I know it's going to resonate with many of our

audience members so as someone says Hey like how do I find out more about Adrian

or reach out to her or just follow what she does and follow her on that Journey on that path that she's on and then my email is adrian.burns35@gmail.com

[Music]so either of those ways I'm easily available

that's awesome thank you so much for coming in Zoom

um that because of kinda things have been a little bit easier now with the

virtual world of being able to patch people into the studio and so big thank

you to the studio big thank you to Adrian for joining us and really reliving some of that vulnerability that

it's not easy to talk about things even if we're and what can be perceived or thought of

as a better spot that recovery is not something that okay, I'm recovered

from my knee surgery I'm recovered from my sprained ankle the recovery is a day-to-day process that we're we just

have more Tools in that tool belt today than we had at a different point

um so yeah just a big thank you for joining us and we'll include your contact

information and our show notes and we wish you from that voices for

voices for me for everybody you know the best of luck and not in not that

it's going to take luck to continue on but the best of luck in in your journey wherever that takes you whatever

other new doors that you find maybe some doors close either doors open but I

know that your stories and it's an inspiration to me and it's inspiration to the audience to be able to be

vulnerable and to share not only the lows but kind of those higher points of yeah you can get through it

might not seem as like for me it might not seem as glamorous as maybe some other ways that

the May the party lifestyle might show but you're going to feel a lot better in inside and you have more of that

emotional aside tied to what you're doing versus just like okay I need to

I need to just work for that paycheck to go out and party and to do those things like okay I need to do that but

then I also I need to I'm a human being, so I have emotions and I think that's

that's huge so yeah thanks again for joining us Adrian and we

we will be watching for your next steps in the future

thank you so much for having me Justin absolutely take care take care

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we want to thank you as we do at the end of every episode for joining us on the

Voices for Voices podcast in a humongous super special thank you

to Our Guest today Adrian Burns not only for joining us but going through the

low points and the high points and how what she's doing today is truly

making a difference in the in the lives of others so we want to again thank her for her time, and we wish her the best of

luck in everything she does in the future from Voices for Voices our board

everybody that's associated with us our sponsors so until next time I am Justin Alan

Hayes founder and executive director of Voices for Voices host and humanitarian

we hope you have a great day and please like Adrian be a voice for yourself or

somebody else in need [Music] [Applause]

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